Saturday, June 30, 2012


A year and a half ago I thought my mood was low because of my life situation.
A year ago I thought my mood was low because of my relationship.
I don't wonder anymore. 
Want to know why? Because I learned that I can control it.
My mood doesn't have to be low if I don't want it to.
My life situation and relationship problems cleared up and my mood still
wasn't lifted so I knew it was up to me. I had to find a way to be happy.
Everyone has bad days but the trick is knowing how to pick yourself up.
I've dealt with lots of deep depression over the years.
And now instead of hating that part of me I love it.
It makes me stronger for having to deal with it.
I am a warrior and I appreciate having to go through such things.
It makes me more grateful for happiness.
I now know I am in control and powerful.

Friday, June 29, 2012


 I looked at a picture of Amber Rose to draw this.

 Colored this one.

 Started a wall for my sexual fetish series.
 Hung more up!

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Create Everything. Part 3

So if we create everything in our world and have all this power and control this gives us a lot of responsibility.
Well that's scary.
So if our life is crap it's our fault?
Sometimes this isn't what we want to think.
Taking responsibility isn't easy but it makes it easier to improve things if you do.
Whenever my life isn't being good to me I know it's directly connected to me.
My thoughts, actions and overall attitude. 
I create my own reality. 

You don't have to practice this yourself if it doesn't feel right to you but I hope I helped someone with these posts. Love more.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012


 I promised my friend a painting like 5 years ago and I finally did it!


Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Create Everything. Part 2

So if we create our past and our future what about now?
All we have is what is in front of us. We can choose how we feel.
We have the power to change our mood to whatever we'd like.
This is a new concept to me. I still sometimes think, if someone is a jerk that makes me mad.
But it doesn't have to be that way.
People won't be pleasant all the time but this doesn't have to ruin our day.
You have a choice!
You have power to create this very moment.
How will you feel? How will you react?
I know this is easier said than done. It's a constant practice.

Saturday, June 23, 2012


 Instagram pictures from my phone. Midori!

 New garters!

Tea time with mama.

Friday, June 22, 2012

Create Everything. Part 1

Recently my mind was opened up by the idea that we create our past as well as the future.
Here is what I mean by that, your future is always just what ifs and all a product of your mind since you don't actually know what will happen right? The past is also just a product of your mind. All of our memories are rewritten each time we recall them. They are not concrete. This kind of blew my mind since I thought what happened in the past was in stone. Now I know that it too is created by our minds. 
How crazy is that?
The only real thing is right now. The present. Everything else is in our head.
I know this is true because different times in my life memories wouldn't feel the same to remember.
We can choose to feel good about it instead.


Wednesday, June 20, 2012


 Being silly...
Cheshire Cat cuddles.
 Fun day!
 Early morning bagels mmm.

 Nap in the car ha.
 I like dumpsters.
 My shoes doing pretty things in the sun.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012


When I was young evil was an attractive concept but I got older and now I realize there is no such thing.
Everything in life is a perception. How will you perceive?
Question your values and beliefs.
Why do you feel that way? Is it what you want? Or did someone else plant the idea?
It's fine to be influenced by others if those things resonate inside you.
I like to figure out if certain desires are actually from me.
Things that are beautiful to me may be someone else's nightmare.
It doesn't mean it's wrong or right. Even if that's what your perception is telling you.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Father's Day.

When you are young you can't usually relate to your parents or maybe I just chose not to. But as I get older I realize more and more how much I'm like my dad.
I remember him reading comics to me and watching movies with me.
Now as an adult I still enjoy movies and comics and would rather sit down and watch something with someone than talk about something neither of us are interested in. Small talk... *shudders*

We are both tauruses and sometimes seem to fit that quite well. Stubborn and inwardly reflective.
We are both creative and like to snack. We value material things and are introverted.
I think we both get our fill from being around lots of people quite quickly.
Positive or negative I tend to see many similarities. For better or worse..

Happy Father's Day everyone! 

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Princess Celestia.

 Getting acquainted. 
 The smell of new toys is the best thing in this world.
Welcome home Celestia! Love you!